Radio Silent

I’m not dead. Just getting over the swine flu, which sucked hard core because along with the the flu, lupus awoke and thought “Oooo! A party!”

I’m over the flu but lupus remains like that one girl at the party who wouldn’t leave until the very end. And even then she may find herself passed out on the couch the next morning, embarrassed because she drooled all over. Nothing that I’m not used to (achy hips, shoulders, knees…) but annoying. I was whining to Peter about feeling cruddy but had to tell myself to suck it up. I was given a reprieve while I was dealing with friggin cancer. I should just be grateful.

Also, I’ve been trying to ignore the headache that I’ve had for 2 weeks. Finally, today I couldn’t take it anymore and dragged ass back to the doctor. She put me on a burst of steroids (6 days worth) hoping to ease the inflammation of what she thinks is a sinus infection. Awesome.

I’m lying down now with earplugs in. Loud (although happy) children + debilitating headache = no bueno.

Forgive me and all of my hideous complaining. I’m so sick of myself I could puke.

The boobs are good. Weird and awkward but no pain and the scars are healing really well. The kids like to say “Jan 6th is when they’ll put in the soft boobs, right?”

Of course, lately ALL of the talk is about Halloween. How many days? How many hours? How many minutes? We carved pumpkins yesterday afternoon and watched “It’s a Great Pumpkin, Charlie Brown” while the snow came down. It made me excited to soon bust out A Charlie Brown Christmas by the Vince Guaraldi Trio, my all time fave Christmas album.

I’ll leave you with one of my favorite pieces of art in Denver.

red chair

Isn’t it fantastic? It sits right next to the Denver Public Library. I love to imagine that there is a enormous toddler wandering around Denver, who left a toy horse on his chair. I love the randomness of it and the scale.

And how great is the word “fecundity?” Peter used it the other day and I swear I swooned. Then I got out my moleskine to scribble the word down. So many great words…so little time.

I hope your week is shaping up to be a good one.

Shout out to a fellow professional patient. Keep on keeping on, lady. You’re damn funny.

2 comments:

Sheri Nugent | October 27, 2009 at 8:56 AM

Glad you are feeling better. The prednisone (steroids)ROCKS! With my chronic sinus issues, I weep for joy when the doc releases another packet into my greedy little hands. If I could take them every day, I would. You will feel so much better!

Confessions of a Mother, Lawyer & Crazy Woman | October 28, 2009 at 7:12 PM

Hey there - This professional patient enjoys the shout out! Thank you for that!

Not jealous of the swine flu. Glad to hear you are feeling better(ish). Hope the kiddos stay well.

That Lupus chick sounds like a real b-tch! Pretty sure she didn't get enough attention at home as an adolescent, probably had an absent father? I did appreciate the last guest at the party description, you always make me laugh.

And, just between you and me (and all one billion people on the Internet), I have been known to drool on occasion and overstay my welcome, but only when the party is REALLY good. So, I would take it as a compliment, you must be so interesting to hang out with that Lupus does not want to leave and miss any of the fun ...

Stay strong! - J