For you both

Dear Hadley and Finn,

I know a lot of times I’m cranky and I wish I wasn’t.

I sigh A LOT out of impatience and annoyance.

I am short with you when I shouldn’t be and use that gross guttural voice to yell, that comes from deep within and makes me sound like a man.

I know sometimes I use swear words when I always thought I would NEVER. ( Nana swore about 5 times in her life and I remember where I was and what I was wearing when she did.)

As you both got on the bus for your first day of school, I felt like I was going to throw up I was so nervous. (more nervous for Finn, HJ, I knew you were going to be aces.) I didn’t cry. I was just super nauseous.  I was also excited because you’re MY people and you’re spreading your wings and FLYING! Out in the world! Alone! That’s very very cool to think I am a part of that.

My long winded point is know that I love you. Deeply. Fiercely. Happily. Always and forever. With all of my heart. Make me proud, lovies.

Love,

Mom

First Day of School from Emily Provost on Vimeo.

3 comments:

Michelle | August 10, 2010 at 12:29 PM

That video is ADORABLE!

Meg | August 11, 2010 at 12:43 PM

I LOVE THIS VIDEO!!! The way their arms are hanging over each other's shoulders, the cock in H's hip, Finn's correction in grade level....that little smirk noting that it's actually kindergarten he's headed to that morning. OMG. LOVE THIS.

Emily | August 11, 2010 at 1:04 PM

Thanks. The camera work/quality is shite, of course. I was holding Ollie while shooting.
But I kind of love it too.
I usually don't like to talk but I often remember what you said Meg about them wanting to hear my voice at some point later in life. So I talk.