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I’m sick. Stuffed up, can’t breath, in bed, wiped out, sick.
What started as sniffles has progressed quickly into a whole bunch of garbage.
I just keep thinking “really?” I have cancer and am going to get my boobs cut off because of it.
Really? This is the time I need to be sick? Isn’t there some guy in Scranton who could have used this cold more than me?
Blech.
I am doing ok, I guess. I’m scared. Mostly about recovery. How long it will take me. The expanders they will put in. The strange sensation of not having my own breasts anymore.
I also have a request. Not that I know anyone who would do this because anyone who knows me well enough wouldn’t but…Please refrain from sending me anything breast cancer related. By that, I mean any kind of pink ribbon stickers or “I beat Cancer” baseball hat, or a figurine that has a breast cancer ribbon on it, or a car magnet. Anything like that. #1 I hate things like that. #2 This is something horrible that I will get through, it does not define me. I will not be defined by this.
Anyway, one thing I’m looking forward to is that on September 1 my cell phone contract is up with AT&T! I will finally be released from the claws of the devil.
I can’t get cell coverage in MY OWN HOME or really anywhere in a 10 mile radius surrounded my home, which is awesome because I never need to use my phone in those areas. (WTF???) There have been times when important results needed to be relayed over that freaking phone and I had problems. There have been times when I have helplessly watched my phone ring in my house and haven’t been able to pick it up. I really want to set my phone on fire in front of an AT&T store cursing their existence…but I won’t. I will dutifully recycle my old phone.
That is all.
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2 comments:
Hey Emily -
I had to laugh. I HATE that Pink Breast Cancer stuff. Mixers and spatulas and shit. Hate it. Why would you want daily reminders of cancer in your house? Does this make me insensitive? I don't think so. Glad you feel the same.
I have a friend who just went through what you're going through. Her recovery was FAST. She blogged about it. Warning: she is VERY religious... so there's lots of God-talk on her blog. But she's very sweet and describes in detail how she felt up to and after the surgery. I am encouraged by that for you - except, of course, you have the extra fun of lupus. If you want to read her story, her blog is http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/maryleighjohnson.
Her surgery was about a month ago, I think.
Feel better soon.
Sheri
You are most certainly not defined by cancer my dear. YOU are defined by dignity, grace, and the most wicked sense of humor I've ever known.
Now, I must go return the pink "Stomp out Breast Cancer" slippers I bought for you. (hee hee).
Love you more than you may even know,
Meg
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